She envisioned her mind as hundreds of tangled wires, all sparking at the ends rather than terminating in a distinct, uncluttered way. It was always racing, always leaving her with the sinking feeling of forgetting something important. Today was no exception. In the middle of pondering lasagna-making she felt the anxiety take over. What was she worried about now? Her relationship? Her job? She wondered if she'd ever really know.
To an ordinary person everything in her life seemed to be going well, but this was no ordinary girl. Ordinary girls don't have the expectations for their lives like this girl did. 'Just okay' wasn't good enough; she demanded the world and more! What she feared most was that she would not really live her life, at least not to its full potential. She questioned whether her fire was squelched and became paralyzed by the choices she wasn't sure she had or knew how to make.
She pushed aside the thought of delicious lasagna to focus on herself for a moment. What did she need; what did she want? ... Clarity. The decision was made to spend the year exploring what her heart and mind were really trying to communicate. She wistfully thought that just maybe she could transform her life thoughts out of the borderline coherent state they were currently in.